Introduction

I've been wanting to start this blog for awhile now.  I have been diagonsed with Bi-polar depression and ADHD and thought I would share what it is like to live with this diagnosis.  Well it is HELL sometime and not so bad others.  There are days I can't get out of bed and then days I can't sleep at all.  I see a therapist on a regular basis and a psychiatric for medicine management.  I also hold down a full time job as a computer programmer.  I am married but don't have any children(thank goodness for them). You might be wondering how I do it.  Well that is why I started this blog.  I am going to write down - hopefully everyday - what is going on in my life.  I hope maybe someone will read this but I am not worried about that.  This is mostly for myself to have a place to just talk about it.

Today - yesterday I went to the doctor and found out I have a nasty sinus and ear infections.  I came to work today (work is very strict on attendance) and have been trying to get something done.  I've been having trouble staying focus on the task I am working on.  I decided that it would be a good idea to take a couple hours off this afternoon and rest.  I asked my boss for 2 hours off and he said no problem.  I am lucky to have a good boss.   Despite what I live with I am also a good employee.  I get to work every day and work hard.  There are days I am very focused and get a lot done and those I just stare at the computer wondering what I am doing.  It is important to me that I get to work and do the best job I can.  That means the best job within my limitations.  I've been at this job for 3 years now so I can't be doing that bad.  It all seems to work out and I do meet my deadlines.  I feel guilty on those days I am not very focused but I make up for it on the high energy days.  Most days are just in between.  Today though is one of those days where I have no energy or focus.  

Well until next time - Have a good day.